Ellie Day’s Emotional Note on the Loss of her Unborn Baby

Last month, Jason Day’s wife, Ellie, announced that the couple was expecting a third child in June.

On Tuesday, however, Ellie updated her Instagram followers with heartbreaking news that she had lost the baby.

“I was devastated. I snuck out the back door of my doctor, a hot, sobbing, mascara-covered mess. Two and a half weeks went by with me battling my heart and brain about what was happening in my body, wondering why this wouldn’t just be over.

My heart couldn’t take the waiting, or the feeling, or the tiny belly bump poking out any longer. Why did this happen … and now that it’s passed, why can’t my body just accept it and get rid of it? Such a bizarre experience that I never understood before.

Finally on Thanksgiving I lost the baby. Initially I felt complete despair. And then I saw the baby. Fully intact. Tiny perfect head and face and arms and legs. When I saw it I felt God so much I can’t explain it.

I felt seen and known. I felt so guilty for wondering if this baby was really in heaven before. This was a perfectly well-thought out, precious life formed in my belly, and it most certainly went straight to the arms of Jesus. I was so thankful He gave me a peace and joy in the midst of sadness. Guys we are SO incredibly and beautifully created.

For some reason this baby wasn’t meant to be physically here with our family. But I know there is a greater plan. I have so much peace and gratitude for what I already have… I know I am SO lucky to already have Dash and Lucy. It just feels like this weird scar now… this huge change of plans… wondering what the Lord has for me.”



Karen Gaudreau

Karen Gaudreau is a contributor to Pro Golf Weekly.

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